Shallow or high standards???

Today i was on the phone with my friend ordering King Taco when this guys starts staring at me (I didn't look his way but I could feel his eyes burning a man size hole in my damn face). He says Hi and said your beautiful Mind you I'm sick and I have on a ashy ass black tee with some over sized jeans (because I'm losing weight) my crusty ass new balances my Fedora with my hair in a bun with my edges all twisted up because I was trying to make them look "less nappy". That took me aback because I look horrible no where near beautiful, yet he looked at me and saw past my crusty ass clothes and snotty nose. So I thank him and he asks who I'm on the phone with...and what does my dumb ass say MY BOYFRIEND knowing good and damn well I don't have a boyfriend. I'm as single as a one dollar bill (ha). The point I'm trying to make is why is it that every time a guy tries to talk to me or shows interest I always hit em with the line "oh I have a boyfriend". Could I be really that shallow or have standards that high??? Since I've been typing I been thinking and that's not the case. I think I'm afraid to get my heart broke, I think too much about what others think, I'm scared to let myself to be happy, Hell, I even feel like I don't deserve to be happy or have some one that loves me :-(

I live for the WEEKENDS

This weekend was none stop fun starting from Friday. Friday was my friend Brandi's birthday. She got a party bus the size of a chartered bus. Now, I normally don't say terms like "turnt up" or it was "On" but it was Turnt up and On lol OMG it was soooooo much fun!!! We didn't get back to Gardena til like 3:30. Saturday was a rest day for me lol. Sunday Chanel Chase and I went to Six Flags for fright fest. That was the best time EVER! The longest wait time was an Hour the shortest was like 30 seconds lol October has Started of GREAT!

Don't forget to peep the pic's

GO PINK FOR THE CAUSE

October is Breast Cancer Awareness month. Breast cancer is the NUMBER one cause of cancer death in women. So do you self exams, go get your mammograms.

Here's a diagram for the self exam....Early detection saves lives!

It saved my life!!!!