Shallow or high standards???

Today i was on the phone with my friend ordering King Taco when this guys starts staring at me (I didn't look his way but I could feel his eyes burning a man size hole in my damn face). He says Hi and said your beautiful Mind you I'm sick and I have on a ashy ass black tee with some over sized jeans (because I'm losing weight) my crusty ass new balances my Fedora with my hair in a bun with my edges all twisted up because I was trying to make them look "less nappy". That took me aback because I look horrible no where near beautiful, yet he looked at me and saw past my crusty ass clothes and snotty nose. So I thank him and he asks who I'm on the phone with...and what does my dumb ass say MY BOYFRIEND knowing good and damn well I don't have a boyfriend. I'm as single as a one dollar bill (ha). The point I'm trying to make is why is it that every time a guy tries to talk to me or shows interest I always hit em with the line "oh I have a boyfriend". Could I be really that shallow or have standards that high??? Since I've been typing I been thinking and that's not the case. I think I'm afraid to get my heart broke, I think too much about what others think, I'm scared to let myself to be happy, Hell, I even feel like I don't deserve to be happy or have some one that loves me :-(

I live for the WEEKENDS

This weekend was none stop fun starting from Friday. Friday was my friend Brandi's birthday. She got a party bus the size of a chartered bus. Now, I normally don't say terms like "turnt up" or it was "On" but it was Turnt up and On lol OMG it was soooooo much fun!!! We didn't get back to Gardena til like 3:30. Saturday was a rest day for me lol. Sunday Chanel Chase and I went to Six Flags for fright fest. That was the best time EVER! The longest wait time was an Hour the shortest was like 30 seconds lol October has Started of GREAT!

Don't forget to peep the pic's

GO PINK FOR THE CAUSE

October is Breast Cancer Awareness month. Breast cancer is the NUMBER one cause of cancer death in women. So do you self exams, go get your mammograms.

Here's a diagram for the self exam....Early detection saves lives!

It saved my life!!!!

All Around The World (same song)

Before I leave this beautiful place called Earth it's a MILLION & One things I want to see and places I want to go. my Top 15 places are *drum roll*

The Great Wall of China

Stone Hedge

The Pyramids of Giza

The Eiffel Tower

The Leaning Tower of Pisa

Mount Rushmore

Easter Island

The Christ Statue in Brazil

The Taj Mahal

Rome Colosseum

The Chichen Itza in Mexico

Machu Picchu in Peru

Petra in Jordan

The Sydney Opera House

Nigeria Falls

From Ca to Va and Back

Chello!! Last week I took a week long Vacation to Virginia to go to my friend Brandon's wedding (which I didn't get to see because I was LATE. I refused to walk in late so I just went to the reception) and also to visit the people I most care about. I had a great time besides getting ate up by mosquito's and spiders. I saw my favorite people that I know will have my back no matter what Stephanie, Sylvette, and Kelleigh (I absolutely love these girls withe the bottom of my heart). Ha, I attempted to go to DC and see the MLK memorial but my Ls's (Shari, and Kelz) and I got lost and just decided to eff it. I had a blast for the most part. I couldn't live in Va but it's a great place to visit and relax.

Recently a guy that I use to be in love with talk to in college (the one that I could have spent forever with) told me that I was afraid of LOVE No one has ever told me that. When I read that text my heart dropped and I couldn't do anything but admit that it was true. I know I have commitment issues,but being afraid of love? That's the one thing I've always wanted experienced. I know that Anytime a guys starts to show me his feelings I push him away. What happened in my life that mad me not want to be swept off my feet and fall in love?? All I know is this go round (since all of a sudden everybody wants to like Tamika) I'm going to make it a point to let my guard down and fall in love....

Happy Birthday

Today my mom would have been 54 years young...

Happy Birthday Mommy!!! I will always love you....

My BFF's are expecting!!!

My Bff's (in my head) Sean Jay-z Carter and Beyonce' Knowles are expecting their FIRST child, and I couldn't be more happy for them! Last night on the VMA's King Bey dropped the news! After she performed she dropped the mic and open her jacket to show off her cute little baby bump! Jay and Kanye were in the audience cheering and crackin a big smile!!!! I fricken LOVE them!!! FYI: Kanye is my Bff too lol. (IMO Bey and Jay did it the right way dated, marriage, enjoyed each other, then BABY)



Lately

Lately, I've been thinking about moving out of state to New York, DC, or Atlanta. As bad as I want to move it's one thing holding me back...my grandma! I don't want to move and have to come back home for the unthinkable (her passing away). I know I shouldn't put my life on hold but I need to do what's right for me. What would you do? Do you think I should just move and visit often? Or just stay in California, because all my family is here???? Help!!!!

Happy Birthday King of Pop

Happy 53rd Birthday to the King of Pop

 Michael Jackson!

There will Never be anyone like him Rest in Peace

Aaliyah